How great. I screwed it up again. No mood for anything today..

I just hope everything goes well before the trip and during the trip.. It’s something that we have been looking forward to.. I can’t screw it up.. And I hope u won’t..

Counting down to 7 more days:)

Arghhh!!!! Y I can’t stop thinking?!? I need to concentrate for work!!!!

F***

I CAN’T FALL ALSLP:(

Everything that I have finally put aside, stop thinking about is coming back to haunt me again. I feel so hurt, so cheated. I thought there will not be anymore things to hide about..

If u want me to trust u, u can’t be hiding things from me. U need to respect me, for me to gain trust on u. But do u know every time when I try so so hard to build my trust for u.. Any time u can just make it comes crashing down like nobody’s business..

Haven’t u been reading my blog? Don’t u remember how terrible I felt every time all cos of her? Why would u still want to make friend with some one that has once hurt me so so much, some one that u know I will feel jealous and terrible abt? If u do love me, can u think of my feelings & forgo this friend?

You will never understand how hurtful it is, cos I will never do something like that to hurt the one that I love. Y can’t u do the same? Am I asking too much?

It feels terrible (not just sad) to see what u write to her.. TERRIBLE.

Sorry doesn’t help in any way at all.. That feeling just sucks to the max..

There are so many things that I want to tell you about.. I miss you badly:(

连续两晚，哭得好累好累。一个人在寂寞的夜里好孤单。越是孤单，想得越多。想得越多，就哭得越多。没完没了！哭累了就会睡得更好吧？只希望明天不会像熊猫就好。。

有时候真的很希望自己有那个勇气就可以算了。但是却做不到，觉得好辛苦。有时候我都不知道自己在执著什么？值得吗？这样下去的下场会是如何？如果是不可能，我为什么还拼命地觉得是可能？ 我也太天真，太可笑了吧。。

I can’t believe this is happening to me now. Oh please, this is CNY. I should be happy & all prepare for bai nian tml. But I can’t make myself fall alslp now. Not at this time? I don’t want to be a panda tml. Please stop thinking abt anything & let me rest now..